Ann Bradstreet

ann bradstreet once said:

"among all of my experiences of God's gracious dealings with me I have constantly found this; that He hath never suffered me long to sit loose from him, but by some affliction or another hath made me look home, and search for what was amiss."

what a wise woman.

go for it

today i heard a quote. on tv amazingly. an actress said:
'whatever it is that makes your pulse race...go for it.'
it was one of those quotes that just feels right to your intuition.

lately i've been doing a lot of thinking. about what is really important, and what i need to be going after and doing to be the kind of person i want to be.

then i heard this quote and thought what makes my pulse race?

amazingly they coincide.

feeling the spirit and building my testimony make my pulse race. and they are things i want to feel more. so i will go for it.

doing well in a class or on a test makes my pulse race. and thats something i want to do more. so i will go for it.

being independent. making decisions for myself and caring about myself make my pulse race. so i'm going for it.

making friends and meeting new people makes me pulse race. go for it.

being around my family and having fun with them makes my pulse race. going for it.

loving those around me. going for it.

stolen

The Clouds Move Slowly

You close your eyes when you cry. That's ok. Just don't keep them closed too long. Things have become beautiful since you last looked. There's nothing more to cry about.

i stole this from the blog I Wrote This For You. isn't it beautiful?

S*N*O*W

today was the first real snow. what makes a snow a real snow is that it sticks, snows for more than an hour, and is all around pretty.

when i woke up today and looked out the front room window of my apartment i started bouncing up and down on the couch like a three year old. -I LOVE THE SNOW. there is nothing in this world that compares to the beauty of the snow.- luckily for me both my room mates love the snow too, so they didn't find my bouncing to be too terribly weird.

I love the white sparkly effect of the snow. EVERYTHING looks prettier in the snow. even people. actually especially people. it just looks sooo pretty! thats why they call it a winter wonderland. snow leaves you in wonder. you never hear anyone call summer a wonderland. (you can tell which i like better.)

the downside of snow? driving in it. it's absolutely terrifying. and in utah it is so hard to decide if you should drive now or wait a while. because often if you wait a couple minutes it will start to melt. oh utah. you are bipolar when it comes to weather. but this snow, i will keep.

Boy

I miss my brother. i called him boy. he called me sister girl.

i went to one of his best friends homecomings today and i just wish it would have been his.

no one can describe my brother. you just have to meet him cause he is just ian. he is extremely blunt and straight forward but in a way that endears you. i miss him telling me exactly what he thinks of this world. he never tried to put himself in someone elses shoes, so his views were always very skewed, but i loved them. he always told me very bluntly if i was wearing too much make up or didn't look like i cared about myself. i actually miss that. i love his honesty. and oh the tact he lacks. i love it.

i hated him when we were little. he loves bugging. and he takes things too far a lot of the time. but its just how he is. you get used to it. then you learn to do it back. haha. my mom always said that i got away with saying things to ian that no one else could get away with.

ian loves learning something new and then sharing it with you. he loves to teach in a way that makes you think and sometimes makes you feel stupid haha. he doesn't have much patience until he tries to teach you something. he takes the time to make sure you get it. but he can be a pretty harsh teacher sometimes.

i remember once he was teaching me to drive stick. he was driving us home after i had finally started to get it in one of the many church parking lots in pleasant grove. we stopped on a huge hill and he said ok drive us home. anyone that drives stick knows hills are VERY hard. especially when you are learning. now the problem was i REALLY had to pee. he very matter of factly told me that if i wanted to use the bathroom i was going to have to get up that hill some how.
i drive up hills perfectly.

ian never sways from a belief. he is out serving a mission in brazil right now and i know he is doing amazing. he's been out for a year and i miss him like crazy. i can't wait till he gets back.

oh the plants

the joy of working in an herbarium full of smelly plants is, on occasion i come across words that make me giggle to myself. of course everyone else that works in the herbarium actually likes plants and they know why the heck the plants have the name they do. but i don't. so i giggle about the names such as:

Wawawaiensis or almost as good, Happolopapis.

i have really seen these names. this is the part of working at the herbarium i like. the part where i see wierd words then i go get the plants and realize they are actually sage brush. why can't they just call them sage brush? but you know whatevs.

just try to pronounce this please

wa-wa-wa-IENSIS! or hap-polo-pap-IS!